back from osaka & kyoto (: which was quite an adventure i must admit. roars, typing on my mum's laptop with my new fake nails. ahaha. they're pink with frangipani-ish flowers. meheheehehe. more about japan another day, together with pictures..

did alot of thinking there. esp on the trains. i love trains.. i get to watch the world go by, plus i don't get car-sick. which is great. haha. anyway, i watched 'happy birthday' on my way home on e flight, and i fear i'll become like that one day. stuck in the past, stuck on snippets of memories or moments of happiness, and hence never able to let go.

i was never able to walk away from things. cos i was afraid of losing ppl. losing security. so i always tried to hold them close. but i rmb rachel telling me once, the more i try to hold on to smthing, the faster it'll leave me. of the 3 doors that i need to close before i leave, one was closed on both sides, one slammed in my face and one i think i'll never be able to close.

sighs. for the one slammed in my face. thinking about it makes me feel bitter sometimes. but i don't want to be bitter, i want to be able to smile and say hi if i see you again. so i'm just going to think of it as a favour, a resolution to finally end something that started but never really happened.

plus i just watched jerry maguire properly for e first time today (: SO SWEEEEEET. mehehehee.

you complete me.

you had me at hello..

and i've decided once and for all. no more reminiscing, no more picking up of perfume samples and no more looking around hopefully. this is my final goodbye.